Been Awhile

I’m about to go on a run, but it’s been awhile. I know this sounds super weird but I get nervous when I haven’t gone for some time. I can’t explain it but it’s like that nervous feeling when you haven’t seen someone in awhile or when you are anxious about something. I get anxious often, and I didn’t used to. I think it’s probably because I don’t usually do too many crazy things that I don’t want to do. You know when you are little and there would be something that you didn’t want to do, but your parents would make you, and lets be real it was probably for the better, and then you would do it and be thankful afterward. Well, when you grow up you’re in charge of your life and you don’t have to do any of those scary, good for you things if you don’t want to. You can just stay in bed all day long and not move, and you can do this over and over again if you want. Of course eventually someone would probably make you move, but you could do it if you figured out some way to make the rest of your world not worry about you. I get nervous like that when I haven’t run in awhile, that’s all.

I think I’m going to run that 2.6 mile loop twice, you know the one I was talking about, and see if it’s as easy as it was last week.

You know what I don’t like about having a boyfriend, don’t get me wrong I like most things about having a boyfriend, but do you know what I don’t like? I don’t like being accountable. Today my boyfriend let me take his keys to our place because I couldn’t find mine (I found them later) and now I can’t go on a run for as long as I would like because I have to come home and let him into the house, It’s so frustrating– even though it was my own fault.

And his stupid friend is coming over. I don’t think I’ve ever said that out loud because they are super close (it feels great!) and he thinks that I like him, but he’s the exact opposite of any guy I would like. He’s super into himself and it drives me up the wall, and it makes me want to make him eat like five burger so he’s not obsessed with the way he looks.

Anyway I got to go so I can go on a run and let my boyfriend and his stupid friend in our apartment, ahhhhhh, I hope the run makes me feel better about it.